Drifting Back Into A Bad Mindset

Hey all, good ol pony here. just this pat week I've found myself in an increasingly hostilic mindset towards my coworker. I'm not asking for therapuetic level help unless one of us is one, but I'm pretty much at the same point that got me to drink myself out of my emergency medical services job. Basically i found myself looking at purchases to kill all my coworkers there and drank alcohol to get myself fired- finally I may add- to remove that problem from my psyche.

This past week is getting me to feeling the same way of my current job. I broke the windshield of my car by throwing my keys at it out of rage.

I'll read your help if youll give it. I'm drunk as crap right now and unsure how sober I'll be this weekend but I'll do my best to check in.

I guess I'm asking for sympathies even though it's mildly effective.

I'm sorry more or less just ranting in a more or less desirable manner here.